"I've been trying to lay my head down but I'm writing this at 3am."

[nausicaa83]

Sorry for disappearing on you, but it's been a crazy month. I had the usual pet scan, and most things look great and one thing looks, in their words, 'shady'. So I got another big scare, and had to do a lot of additional exams, including a very, very painful one that got me stuck in bed for two days straight afterwards. It was awful. Now we're waiting for the results next week, then I'll either keep going on with the meds I'm already doing, or start a new chemo cycle. Which sucks. But they told me that even if we have to do option B it'll be a very mild chemo, with basically no side effects and great results. Which sucks a lot less.

As soon as I felt better I hopped on a train back home: I had to take my mind off it, and see Tati and hug my cat. I've been here since saturday and I feel a lot better. Today I woke up with a mild cold, because that always happens to me with air conditioning (back at my aunt's place we're on the mountains, so there's no need for it, but here in Venice it's obligatory).

To take my mind off everything that's happened I decided to do something I should have done years ago and bought a Rooster Teeth membership, so that I can watch new Red vs Blue episodes the day they're released. And pay the creators back too. The new episode was mindblowingly amazing and so worth it!

So this has been my month so far. The doctors say it's perfectly normal, having to adjust the therapy constantly, but to me it's still been kind of a shock. I like routine, thank you very much. Next week we'll see if we actually have to do that or not, and then I'll probably come back here after the 20th. My aunt is spending a whole month with her mom, my cousin is staying in Ireland with her boyfriend until well into September, and both my uncle and other cousin work all day. I don't mind spending time alone, but that would be a bit too much.

Updates will follow when they finally tell me something. Until then I'll be on the couch hugging my cat.

Comments

[fioredelmale.livejournal.com]

Crossing fingers and paws for you!

[space-oddity-75.livejournal.com]

Hello there, hon! So glad to hear from you again. ♥ I'm so sorry you had to undergo that painful exam, and hope the result shows that you have nothing more to worry about. *crosses everything*

Be careful with your head cold and take it easy while you're at home, will you? Aircon can be nasty, although I understand it's the only way to survive in Venice in the hot and humid summer.

Big, big hugs! Talk to you again as soon as you feel like it. Take care!

[capracotta.livejournal.com]

Un milione di abbracci! Fatti coccolare dalla micia ;-) A presto!

[stardust-made.livejournal.com]

I hope the couch is lovely and that big soft fluff ball has left some space for you on it.:) Hugging therapy is the best, have one from me!

Keeping fingers crossed for good news. As someone who appreciates routine, I can imagine well how not having it doesn't make things easier. But maybe at some point the regular adjustment will become a routine itself? Right now two days of my work week are like a magic 8 ball - I never know what I'll get in terms of business and schedule. But since that's been the case for about six months, I've now sort of grown used to not having a routine for those days. If that makes sense. And if it's any consolation.:)

Here's to a good weekend, snuggling and friends, and good news or at least - not bad news.♥

[shiinait.livejournal.com]

Mi faccio vedere sempre a tratti, ma come è andata? Spero meglio di quanto sembrasse all'inizio!!