"Did you stand too close to the fire? Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone."

[nausicaa83]

day one • a song
day two • a picture
day three • a book/ebook/fanfic
day four • a website
day five • a youtube clip
day six • a quote
day seven • whatever tickles your fancy

You get two links! The first one is Addic7ed.com, home to every subtitle to every tv show ever, before anyone else. These guys are amazing.

The second is Rawr Caps, home to a lot of screencaps from a lot of tv shows and movies. Perfect website for iconmakers. ^^

Tonight it's dinner with my friends, I'm really nervous about it. Since it's six of us I don't think I'll be able to talk with *that* friend of mine I told you about, so I'll just have to play it cool and save the "talk" for another occasion, when it's only the two of us. Crossing fingers here, I hope it won't get too awkward.

Comments

[tsuki-yagami.livejournal.com]

*Prova a scrivere nonostante le dita incrociate*
Ti ho già ampiamente ringraziata per il primo link (utilissimo) ma un altro grazie ci sta :P e mi prendo pure il secondo link ecco xD
Buona cena stasera e divertiti!

[nausicaa83.livejournal.com]

Grazie! :****

[capracotta.livejournal.com]

Che fighi i due link, grazie! ^^

[nausicaa83.livejournal.com]

Di nulla! ^^

[tati81.livejournal.com]

A me sembra andata bene ^.^ Meglio di quello che speravo sicuramente...

[nausicaa83.livejournal.com]

Non ho affrontato l'argomento e ho fatto finta di niente. Mi va bene tornare alla normalità, ma non mi sento più di parlare di "cose serie", quello no.

[tati81.livejournal.com]

Chiaro, è comprensibile, però almeno ci siamo divertite, temevo i silenzi tombali ^^''

[nausicaa83.livejournal.com]

Pleeeasseee, mi conosci meglio di chiuque, ti sembro il tipo da silenzi tombali? ;)

[tati81.livejournal.com]

Ok, ma questa volta era un po' più serio, avresti avuto tutto il diritto di stare in silenzio ^^

[nausicaa83.livejournal.com]

Beh, è passato abbastanza tempo da calmarmi, poi finchè si parla di fandom e cose così sono a mio agio.

[stardust-made.livejournal.com]

How did the dinner go? I hope it wasn't too awkward?

[nausicaa83.livejournal.com]

She came in the afternoon, and we spent two hours alone, but I never got the nerve to talk to her. She was so nervous, like she wanted me to be happy, so I acted like nothing happened. I noticed I could talk about normal stuff, our fandoms and everything, but I couldn't talk about mom, or my sleepwalking accident the other day, or anything else that felt "real", like the only thought of sharing those things with her felt... wrong, somehow. And she definitely doesn't want to talk about it, she seemed so happy that everything was back to normal.

So, I don't know, I'll just see how things go. I must admit, I never had many friends, when I was a kid I got along well with all my classmates, but the first real friends I got only when I was 22, so I'm quite a disaster at knowing what to do in these cases.

[stardust-made.livejournal.com]

Maybe it'll be one of those friendships where you re-adjust your expectations and just don't seek her for RL stuff anymore. Sometimes when space opens, it gets filled by something new--it's like a Universal law or something. I'm not sure that I'm making myself clear. But for instance when I 'moved' a close friend off the list of few people with whom I could talk about really deep things (and that move wasn't easy or quick at all, mind), a couple of years later I found that I'd made another very important friendship. And I'm not 20 anymore so I don't form life-long friendships left, right and centre, and that friendship is of that kind--I do believe it was because I'd had to let go of that other friend.

At any rate, I'm sure this would find a way to arrange itself--when both of the people feel awkward, things...sort themselves out somehow. It might not be in the best way possible, but you can't force yourself, right?

[nausicaa83.livejournal.com]

Yep, that's it. I think it'll just stay like this, it feels a lot more natural just to keep RL stuff to myself. Besides, since she didn't make any attempt at talking about what happened, it means she prefers not to talk about serious stuff.

So, well, everybody's happy, and I won't find myself anymore in situations where I could be hurt by her.